Chapter One Hundred!!!!
Finally made it to the golden 100 chapters, hope this doesn't disappoint. Please comment on whether this chapter in particular lives up to your anticipation. Love this story so much that all comments are pleasurable!
Martha was deep breathing for the duration of
time that it took to settle the birthday boy into bed, then until Lucy and
Henry arrived.
“You
going back to the pub?”
Martha smiled at Lucy, “as long as you don’t
mind?”
Her aunt nodded, “we’re tired, and happy to relax
in front of the TV.”
“I
won’t be late, I just want to...”
Henry smiled, “round the night off. I
remember it well. You deserve some fun, you organised an amazing party today.”
Grinning in a superficial way, Martha nodded,
“thanks H. Aunt Lucy, you are both legends. See you later.”
The pub was ‘Saturday night’ busy when she
walked back in. a few of her old school friends were gathered near the bar, but
she wasn’t in the mood to be overly social, so she pulled up a bar stool and
ordered wine with a lot of soda. She needed to stay sensible and they’d been
drinking a lot earlier in the afternoon. Pam the barmaid served her, and Martha
wanted to roll her eyes at the fact that Sonny was nowhere to be seen. If she
had to wait all night, she would, he HAD to learn that he needed to talk to
her, to trust her, to believe that they wanted the same thing.
She made small talk to those brave enough to
approach her, but she knew she exuded hostility as she sat there playing with
the straw in her drink. Eventually the man himself appeared from the cellar and
looked still as angry as he had earlier, he was someone who could quite easily
self implode when he started to let things get on top of him. Martha sighed,
she didn’t want to make this easy for him, but she didn’t want this to break
them up. Glancing around the bar Sonny’s eyes landed on her and she stared at
him for a minute, he then dropped his eyes and served another customer.
“We
need some more orange juice,” Pam called across to Sonny.
“I’m
on it.” He replied with a grateful nod, and was only too happy to disappear.
Martha wasn’t about to let him keep running,
she’d had enough. So with an awkward smile to the barmaid, she came behind the
bar and followed him to the cellar.
He was pulling crates of bottles from the
corner of the store when he heard her enter. His head popped up and he
immediately rolled his eyes.
“What?”
It was a sharp greeting, far sharper than she
deserved. “What? You’re asking me what I want? Since mid afternoon you’ve
ignored me, scowled at me...I thought we’d got over all this pathetic
behaviour.”
“Pathetic?”
He grunted then turned back to the job in hand.
Martha shook her head in disbelief, “DON’T
turn your back on me! What the hell is wrong with you? Are you trying to drive
me away...again? We make one step forward then you retreat another three. I’m
fed up with it all.”
He laughed, turning to face her slowly,
“really? So what are you going to do?
Walk away?”
This wasn’t how she wanted things to turn
out, her bluff was failing. “Is that what you want?” She finally asked quietly,
“I thought you loved me.”
He looked up to the ceiling exhaling loudly,
“I do. You KNOW that. But I’m fed up with all the shit that comes with that
love.”
“Shit?”
He nodded, “family...friends...everyone
having an opinion, chipping in, giving their opinion.”
“You
mistake them caring for interfering, I come with a family, and I come with friends.
That’s the deal Carter.”
Rolling his eyes Sonny looked back to the
crates of bottles and it infuriated her. “For God’s sake Carter. Don’t turn
away from me.”
“You
talk about honesty Martha, that’s your bag, your big thing, but you lie. You’re
not honest with ME!”
She stared at him, “I haven’t lied to you.”
“I
know about your plans, I know what you want.”
She groaned, “and WHAT is that?”
“Jack
told me...you want me to marry you, you want everyone to know that I love
you...isn’t that true? Are you going to send everyone at me, pressure me until
I drop down onto one knee? If you are you are in for a LONG wait!”
She could barely fight her jaw opening in
shock and surprise, “no. No it’s not true. Jack is a romantic, he wants
everyone to be as happy as he is, he wants me to be settled...but I have never
mentioned marriage. I was too busy enjoying you finally being yourself. You’ve
got to get over your suspicious side...not everyone is out to get one over on
you. Did you really think I’d be that underhanded?” When he shrugged she fought
the need to scream at him, “for God’s sake, I am not Jade, I don’t lie, I don't
cheat and I don’t manipulate. You are paranoid!”
“That’s
what it feels like. Every twist and turn there’s a hidden agenda.”
She sighed, “do you think I’m that superficial?
That I’d send my friend to guilt you in to doing something like that? Have you
learned nothing from the last six months? Carter....there’s no agenda with me;
the only thing that’s ever got between us is you believing insinuations and
gossip. I keep telling you to TALK to me - as soon as something upsets you,
because once your crazy minds starts working I lose you a little bit more.”
“I...”
She laughed, “this is the very last time that
I do this, chase after you, make things good. OK?”
“You’re
hardly perfect yourself.”
“What
do you mean?”
He laughed, “that’s what makes this so good, we
are going to argue, that’s what we do. You are strong minded and controlling...”
She made to challenge that comment and he only widened his eyes in a ‘see what I mean’ gesture, “but that’s
good. If we agreed on everything, if it was all hearts and flowers we’d be
bored shitless. I love that you push me, and I love that you try to win,
because that’s how I know you love me...but I will ALWAYS challenge that lead,
I will always say and do things that piss you off...but neither of us should
change to make this work. Ok?”
She shrugged, “I wish you wouldn’t disappear
into this world though...”
Groaning he looked at her, “I thought...”
“DON’T
think!”
“You don’t want
to get married?” He asked almost with relief.
She shook her head, “no. I don’t.”
He gave a little nod then looked at the floor
for a moment, when his eyes popped up to hers; he had a questioning look, “why
not?”
That took her by complete surprise, with an
awkward grimace she shrugged, “I’m not interested, I mean I was engaged once
before...it led to the worst experiences of my life.”
“That
was to Oldbury, hardly a surprise. Why don’t you want to marry me?”
She shook her head in wonder, “because you’re
moody, paranoid, stroppy, and you are the most annoying man I‘ve ever met, you’re
arrogant, overconfident...”
He shrugged and gave her a boyish grin, “so
you’re listing my good points? Do you think I’m a risk? Do you think I’d be
like him?”
He was looking at her earnestly and she
smiled, “you asking me something Carter?”
He shrugged, “let’s do it, let’s tie the knot.”
Martha walked towards him, “why should I?”
Sonny grinned awkwardly, “we’re good
together, I don’t want anyone else, and I love you.”
She cocked an eyebrow as she looked at him,
suddenly her heart was pounding, she had no idea where this had come from, one
minute he was about to walk away, the next her was asking her...she took a deep
breath.
He shook his head, “I haven’t got a ring, and
I’m not about to drop down on one knee, but I will go speak to your
father...that’s the right thing isn’t it?”
She blushed, “why the change of heart? Five
minutes ago you were going to walk away, going to run rather than think of
this.”
Stalking slowly towards her, he shrugged, “fed
up of running, fed up of being scared, this could be my biggest remaining
demon. I love you; I want forever...I want you.” His hands pulled her close and
he rested his forehead on hers, “marry me?”
Martha hated that tears pricked her eyes, it
seemed that there was no end to the emotions this man could illicit in her, “you
ask my Dad, then you ask me...in front of everyone...THEN you’ll get your
answer.”
He lifted an eyebrow, “making me work for
this?”
She shrugged, “I’m worth it.”
IN reality she needed a moment to process
everything, and she watched as he skipped up the stairs, the crate of orange
juice effortlessly on his shoulder.
Martha helped Pam manage the bar; it seemed
that Sonny’s keenness meant he’d gone straight to see her father, regardless of
who that affected. It was still early, not yet nine and the bar as always was
busy before people headed off to Northbury or further afield for clubs or
parties. Every minute that she stood there at the bar she wondered what she’d
done. He’d asked her to marry him and she’d not answered him, of course she
would, NOTHING would make her happier, it had taken his courage to ask, it went
against everything he believed in. Had he taken that as her saying no, her
rejecting him? How long did it take to get to the farm and back? Suddenly she
felt very sick. What had she done?
At just before ten, she looked up to see
Sonny finally stood in the doorway a smile on his face, her father flanked one
shoulder, his father the other. Behind them were Lucy and Stephanie.
She gulped; suddenly this didn’t seem such a
good idea. The whole of the pub looked up, it was silent and tense. He strode
across the room then crooked a finger in her direction, she put down the cloth
she was using to dry the glasses she’d removed from the washer and came around
the bar. Her legs quivered with anxiety as she stepped across the room towards
her family.
“Ladies
and gentlemen,” he announced in a loud and uncaring voice, his eyes never
leaving hers despite addressing the whole of the pub. “Ninety minutes ago I
asked Martha, this beautiful woman who I love SO much to marry me.” Everyone
gasped in shock and she felt heat rise up her cheeks. “She didn’t exactly say
yes, but she has promised me an answer.”
He reached into his pocket and pulled out a
beautiful solitaire ring, “this is the ring that my father bought for my
mother...but never gave it to her.” He smiled as she gasped in surprise, “So
with everyone here, with this ring, with our families, I want to know your
answer Martha Mansell. Will you marry me?”
Words failed her as emotion stole her voice.
All she could manage was an enthusiastic nod, and as his face broke into a
grin, the happiest grin she’d ever seen, his arms were around her, his lips on
hers, and the pulsing of her own heart almost blocked out the sounds of fifty
people whooping and hollering their congratulations.
Aw haha this chapter left me smiling as if I were the one proposed to! What a lovely and unexpected change of heart, when Sonny freaked at the idea of marriage I had a major moment of exasperation thinking surely that would only be something good for him - I definitely didn't expect him to figure it out so quickly! Love it MZ, and major congrats on 100 chapters, I can't imagine dedicating myself so much to one thing but you have done so beautifully. This story is definitely a special one and I can't tell you how glad I am to have found your writing again :)
ReplyDeleteAlso quick apology for lack of comments, I've been crazy busy at uni and it's not going to die down anytime soon but I'll be around!
Keep up the great work, MZ :D
xx alisonwonderland
I wanted this to be special. Sonny had to sort his own head out. He even kind of doubted himself. Which was what he had to do. Wake up and smell the coffee!
DeleteSo glad you enjoyed. Now it's over I might sleep again! Saying that already have next story brewing! Not sure it'll be as mammoth as this one though!
Thanks for the emotions and the support!
MZ xxx
Wow 100 chapters!
ReplyDeleteSurely it was one roller coaster ride for both of them,guess this what life is not a plain sailing,
And yes I agree with Alison with the proposal part :-)
Annie
More ups and downs than most! But if it's meant to work it takes that!
Delete100 chapters war hard work but I've loved every minute.
Thanks for the comment!
MZ xxx
This chapter was absolutely amazing. Didn't expect Sonny to want to marry Martha, after the whole Jack incident. But I'm glad he did. The proposal was great. It wasn't something planned and that's what made it even more amazing. Thank you for the chapter! And congratulations on your 100th Chapter for this story. :D
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I'm SO glad you enjoyed! You are the most loyal commenter that I have! I really wanted this to be a discussion end to this story. Still contemplating an epilogue...
DeleteNew story very soon. It's ashtray chewing away at my sub conscience!
MZ xxx
Ashtray????? Always! Damn predictive text! Sorry!
DeleteSorry for the lack of comments on the previous chapter ! Just finished with final exams and am already starting summer school !
ReplyDeleteLOVEE THE PROPOSAL.. so martha and Sonny-like. absolutely lovely chapter
thanks for an amazing story..
Sarah xx
Thanks Sarah, it was so important for Sonny to make the decisions, and I hoped this would be exactly right for them.
DeleteThanks SO much, hope school is going well!!
MZxxx