Monday 31 October 2011

Lost and Found - 25

25 - A sneaky extra chapter...hope you all appreciate!!


Christmas Eve, 2008

Li looked beautiful, and would have without the pampering of the previous day. Initially she was keen on a traditional red dress, but instead she had chosen an off white straight dress, trimmed and decorated with rich gold which was traditional, sexy and also exceptionally gorgeous. Li, petite, delicate and daintily featured, shone, and Amelia was captivated by the whole thing. Peter, Li’s adoptive father since the age of eight was giving her away, and the three of them travelled in a decked out Hackney cab from her home to the floating wedding palace.

Amelia felt a little out of place sat with the two who were so close, Peter worshipped Li, but it was the way that Li wanted it to be. Lots of last minute shoppers and drunken office workers waved as they made their way through London, arriving at four pm.

She followed the father and daughter down the aisle to the proud, pleased and overwhelmed Daichi, who looked devastatingly handsome in his dark suit. He’d decided against traditional Japanese wedding attire, but his parents stood in the front row looking traffic stopping in their elaborate clothing.

The room was covered with dozens of tiny lights, and behind the registrar was a huge ornately decorated Christmas tree. It was a magical experience. After the service, Li turned to face her as a married woman, and Amelia couldn’t restrain the tears. In the deck below, tables were set out for the wedding breakfast, a delightfully modernised yet festive menu of sashimi to start, traditional roast goose dinner, and then a selection of Chinese desserts. The perfect mesh of their three cultures.

After speeches, were Daichi reduced the whole room to tears in his devotion to Li, and his such obvious pleasure at her becoming his wife.  Then there was dancing!

As the only bridesmaid, she was in hot demand, firstly dancing with Tatsuya the best man, then both fathers, then many of the guests. Every time she bumped into Li, her friend was smiling, happy, and Amelia’s pleasure and relief doubled each time.

At nine o’clock, Li asked for Amelia’s help and they disappeared to a room deeper in the boat. Then Amelia helped Li change into the outfit she’d selected to fly to the Maldives. Turning to face each other Amelia once again felt tears well.

                “I can’t stop crying Li, but they’re happy tears I swear!”

Li smiled, “I know. And I love you for that.” Reaching in her bag, she emerged with a bag. “This is no way expresses how grateful I am for everything you’ve done.” Firstly she pulled out a small box, “this is to prove that, you haven’t lost your sister, but you’ve gained a brother!”

Amelia ripped open the paper to find wrapped in cotton wool, a brand new key. Looking up she smiled, “is this for your new home?”

Li nodded, she and Daichi were moving to a house after their honeymoon, “the spare room WILL be decorated in to your choice! Secondly...” She lifted out another small box, “this is to thank you for being the best friend a woman could ever ask for.”

Again Amelia ripped open the paper and popped the lid of the box. Inside were two identical necklaces, the charms engraved with each of their birthdates and names. “The thought is that we wear each other.”

Hugging her friend she blinked back more tears, “Li, you are the greatest!”

                “And this is the third gift.”

This time she accepted an envelope and inside was a card that said, ‘Merry Christmas to my Godmother’, confused her opened it and saw the ultrasound photo of a very small growing baby. Her hand went to her mouth as she swallowed the surprise, meeting Li’s eyes she was speechless. Eventually she mustered, “You’re...” When Li nodded she squealed then pulled her into her arms. “I cannot believe it Li wan Cheung, how did you keep that quiet?”

Li grinned, “it’s Li Murakami now you know!” Then hugging Amelia again, she added, “NO one knows, ok. I’m eight weeks, the only reason I’ve had a scan is that I’m flying tomorrow and it’s earlier than recommended. Lots can go wrong, it’s very early days. But I needed you to know!”

                “And I’m so proud that you’ve told me!”

Li still grinning took her hand, “we spend every Christmas together. What will you do tomorrow? You’ve evaded my question for weeks.”

Amelia had no intention of mentioning her father’s ill health, or Sol’s reappearance on the scene. Li deserved to enjoy every moment of her holiday. “Oh you know Cole, he won’t see me alone! And then I’m going to make peace with Daddy dearest! I’ll email you all the gossip. It won’t be the same, but I’m prepared for full on fun!”

Li nodded, “if you’re sure.”

Amelia laughed, “You say that as though you’d stay to look after me...” then noticing her eyes, the honesty, she grabbed her shoulders, “don’t be ridiculous, go enjoy...whilst you can. When this baby comes you’ll have no peace!”

Their goodbye was more emotion, and as their car left for Heathrow, Amelia noticed the car parked across the road, the familiar sleek black car. Sliding down the window, Sol waved from inside. He’d collected her bags from the concierge at Li’s apartment block before coming for her, all she had to do was grab her fur wrap, her tiny handbag and cross the road to him.

As she slipped into the passenger seat, grateful of the heating that meant she could relax, suddenly it was very cold outside, she almost instinctively leaned across the plant a kiss on his cheek, but she managed to control her actions, what had come over her.

                “How was it?” he asked, pulling away from the kerb.

She smiled, leaning back in the seat, “wonderful...and emotional...but mainly beautiful.”

                “You two are close, is must be hard.”

Nodding she gazed at him, “I’ll miss her, but we haven’t lived together for a year. If anything now that I’m back here I’ll see more of her, and Daichi is perfect for her. I’m glad she’s found someone who loves her that much.” She regaled stories of the speeches, Daichi’s emotion, the dances, the clothes, her gifts. “It was a wonderful day. What have you been doing?”

As he hit the motorway out of the now quiet City, he turned to glance at her, “well, I managed to rearrange my trip to Paris that was planned for Boxing Day. I was in no rush for that to happen anyway, and now that I actually have Christmas plans...well I’m definitely not leaving the country now.”

Immediately she started to apologise, but he held up his hand to silence her, “I suggested this, you have not forced me into anything I don’t want to do.”

He drove for a while in complete silence, but it was comfortable, not hostile.

                “I’ve not driven this way in something like twelve years, yet I know the way instinctively!”

A tired Amelia rolled her heavy head along the headrest to look at him, “I know what you mean, I’ve maybe come home half a dozen times since, and no matter what changes, buildings, new roads, closed roads...I seem to just get there, without even thinking. It’s crazy!”

                “So shall I drop you to the hospital?”

                “I’m not sure, let me call them, it’s probably too late for visitors. I call several times a day, jut so he knows I’m thinking of him.” Pulling out her phone, she dialled the ward, and one of the more helpful nurses answered. After a brief conversation she smiled at Sol, “apparently it’s against the rules, but as he’s awake...and I’ve been at a wedding...”

                “Lucky you kept your posh gear on then.”

They spoke very little for the rest of the journey, merely listening to the radio amicably. As he finally entered the hospital grounds, he pulled to a stop, “shall I wait? Or go to chez Parkin to unload. I’m sure I can remember the rest of the route!”

                “It’s after eleven; I can’t see me being there more than ten minutes. Will you wait?” Nodding he reached behind her seat and produced a supermarket bag. Peeking inside she looked up surprised, “Sol Tanner, have you become Mr Thoughtful in your old age?”

                “I didn’t think you’d have time to bring him any supplies, and as it’s Christmas.” He didn’t take the compliment well, but the bag filled with Christmas shortbread, her father’s favourite magazine, fruit, mints and a sneaky small bottle of whisky was the perfect, yet eclectic mix of all her father would want.

Maxwell Parkin looked pale, lying against the white hospital pillows, but as she stepped up to him, he opened his eyes and the smile brightened his face. “Amelia. You shouldn’t be here. It’s late.”

She nodded, “the wedding’s over. I’m here for a while now. I’ve no agenda other than seeing you get well.”

                “Really?”

                “Yup. We shouldn’t have let things get this bad, and I’m sorry for my role in it all.” She silenced him as he tried to speak, “rest Dad, there’s time a plenty to sort out all that’s happened. Now isn’t the time.” Handing him the bag of goodies she sat beside his bed and watched him, but he was tired, found it hard to keep his eyes open. It gave Amelia the chance to leave, but she promised to visit the next day.

 Sol was sat in the driver’s seat his eyes closed, head tipped back when she opened the passenger door. He turned to look at her without lifting his head and she felt a jolt of heat wash through her. With those half closed eyes and the lazy smile for a moment the image of him replete in her bed after a passionate night flew to her conscious thought and it almost floored her.

                “Everything ok?” he asked finally lifting his head.

She nodded then slid in beside him.

It took less than twenty minutes to drive to the Manor house, an eight bedroom airy and often cold property that had been her home. It was the cold that had cause her father so many problems the doctors had confided. When her father had been away serving in the army, her mother had split the house into two separate units, family and guest. It made it so much easier to heat, to clean, and to repair. Sol’s family had taken the guest half, whereas she, Alex and her father had been in the family half. Her bedroom was the top most level and encompassed almost the entire footprint of the house, but the angles walls and ceiling made it a cosy, happy room. As Sol unloaded the car, she turned the heating on; the place was freezing, and then made for her bedroom, just to see it. And nothing had changed, not since the night she’d been caught with Sol and exiled so dramatically.

Walking into the room, the same duvet was on the bed, still rumpled from their bodies. The eleven year old ‘Smash hits’ magazine was on her bedside table, her perfume, her make up...little that she’d used back then, and even her posters adorning the walls. Nothing had changed and it was like stepping back in time and it freaked her out. She was so stunned that she didn’t hear the footsteps on the stairs behind her.

                “Wow! It’s like a museum!”

Spinning around she saw Sol in the doorway taking in the room, “I know.”

He ran a finger through the dust on top of the chest beside him, “did you never come in here again?”

She shook her head, “the thought of remembering us...” she nodded to the bed. “The times I had to come back I slept in the guest room. I couldn’t bring myself...”

His hands landed on her shoulders and he breathed, “And it didn’t help that you thought I’d abandoned you. Shit Meals, how did out lives get so fucked up?”

The sensation of his hands on her shoulders, the passion in the expletives he’d just uttered, were making this an unbearable moment. Sol seemed to pick up on that too.

                “Come on; let’s go downstairs, it’s warmer there. I’ve brought plenty of food, and some wine, and besides if we stay here...”

Making for the door, she agreed, “I know. The last thing we need is...”

As though they’d been burned, they both scuttled down the stairs to the safety of the kitchen.

                “How long are you here for?” she asked taking in the numerous bags that filled the kitchen table. “And how the hell did you fit it all in your car?”

Sol grinned, “it’s so long since I had a full on Christmas lunch that I kind of got carried away!” He opened a bottle of champagne as he spoke and filled two flutes.

As he handed her one, she asked, “My only concern is whether you can cook it all?”

Laughing he produced six pages of instructions; “my secretary helped me with some timings!”

                “I’ll call and thank her if I enjoy it then!” She sipped the fizz, “so did you mention supper?”

It was almost midnight, but she didn’t want to turn in just yet. So she was relieved when Sol nodded, “this was my only cheat!” He produced a box from a deli she knew and had frequented when she’d lived in London. Popping it open, it revealed a variety of nibbles, all very appetising, so with a smile, she selected a quail egg, settled on top of a biscuit loaded with a tomato salsa.

                “And a worthy cheat too!”

Once again the conversation started to flow freely and easily, and it was almost possible to forget the last eleven emotionally traumatic years. To imagine that they were still teenagers, best friends, and in love.

Lost and Found - 24

24



Friday 13th December 2008

                “So, a spa day is all you want as a hen night or rather day?” Amelia looked at her friend, “no fancy dress? No getting drunk? No tiaras or helium balloons shaped like...well, you know what I mean!”

Li nodded, “nope, spa, nice meal then home to bed is all I want! You know I’m not against the odd glass of wine...”

                “Or ten!” Amelia added with a laugh, “no that’s fine, so that’s all planned for next Saturday. All we need to do now is head over to the reception venue; I mean we need to work out exactly how many flower arrangements we need.”

Li nodded, “I’m so glad you’re here, you’re such a great organiser!”

They got the tube to the dock, and were lucky enough to find the boat owner there, they met the newly recruited wedding coordinator and Li released a sigh of relief when she took on the last minute organisation.

                “Right. Let’s go get a drink; we deserve reward for today’s work!” With an exaggerated wink, Amelia linked her arm through Li’s and led her to a nearby pub.

The mood was generally jolly, everywhere Christmas lights and decorations trapped the light and coated the inside of the pub with a sparkly glow. With a glass of white wine each and the remainder of the bottle in an ice bucket between them, they sat in the corner of the pub and smiled at each other.

                “I’m so excited for you Li! I can’t wait for Christmas Eve!”

Li giggled, “But I’m so nervous!” She took her friends’ hands and sighed, “And I worry about what will happen to you...”

Amelia laughed out loud, “it’s your big day and you’re worrying about me? I’m fine. I’m going to find somewhere to live, then I’m thinking about a career change. Who knows? But whatever happens I will be fine! Ok?”

As they started their second glass of wine, Li started to share her fears over her second book.

                “I saw an interview with someone on VH1 last week. Who was it? Might have been Noel Gallagher on about Morning Glory, said that the second album was the hardest, especially when the first is such a big hit. So put yourself in good company and stop worrying! You are an intelligent and witty writer; I have SO much confidence in you!”

After a little silence Amelia asked the question that they both knew was on the tip of her tongue since getting back off the plane.

                “So how’s Sol? Do you see much of him?”

Li shook her head, “he’s away a lot. He’s the face of the business so he travels. I haven’t invited him to the wedding, you know that don’t you?”

Amelia felt a jolt at the thought, she’d been unsure and the unknowing was worse than worrying about seeing him. She still wasn’t sure what she wanted in terms of him, but she couldn’t ignore him, she knew that much.

                “I’m glad he’s not coming, though I think we’ll have to cross paths at some time, it’s not realistic to think that we won’t. Maybe sooner would be better?”

Li sighed, “I don’t know what to suggest Ams, I just hope that one day you’re as happy as me!”

         That evening, ensconced in the hotel room she insisted on renting despite Li's protests, she let her mind wander to Sol. She was honest in that she’d fought to not think about him, but she had thought that he’d be at the wedding, and that had been a real worry for her, now that she knew he wasn’t going to be there, she didn’t know what to think.

She had few friends left in London, so she spent the time when she wasn’t with Li alone, and it was the time alone, the thinking that seemed to be her downfall.

Saturday 21st December 2008

The hen day at the Regency Hotel and Spa was a success. It was the perfect place to mix Daichi’s elderly and fairly conservative mother, with Li’s charity working mother, and three other younger girls. Anything else would’ve been a disaster.  They’d drunk a lot of champagne, eaten wonderful food. But now the night was at an end, and she sat looking at the same damned four walls as she had every night the last three weeks. Tomorrow Li had organised a lunch with her mother and mother-in-law to be, so she had some time to herself. So she decided that she’d head for home.

Sunday 22nd December 2008

The drive to her home, of rather her father’s home was quick. There was very little traffic in the mid morning. For some reason as soon as her job in New York had ended she’d had the burning need to see her father. She’d not been there since their confrontation over a year earlier. He’d refused to see her side of things, and in her heart of hearts, she needed to see him a little remorseful. She’d got as close to the top of the financial world as she wanted, she’d achieved all that she hoped she would. Her job may have ended sooner than expected, but it didn’t detract from the fact that she’d reached the dizzy heights she had.

There were no cars on the sweeping driveway that led to the house. In fact all the windows seemed to be dark, despite the bright winter sun. Ignoring the tinge of nerves that bit at her stomach, she climbed out of her hire car and headed for the front door.

Knocking several times saw no response, so she headed around the back of the house making for the back door, via the kitchen garden. At the gate to the small walled garden, she paused, a vivid image of her mother flashed into her head, tending the garden, battling daily to keep the slugs from her lettuce, cabbages and tomatoes.  Closing her eyes she took a deep breath, that was too many years ago to be feeling such grief. With a deep breath she crossed the garden to the rear kitchen door and found that locked too. Glancing through the various downstairs windows, she saw no sign of life. Heading back to the car, taking in the depth of the anticlimax, she paused, something wasn’t right.

Going back to the lounge window she peered in again, nothing looked unusual...then she saw it. A foot, or rather part of one, just visible behind the sofa. Was it her father? As a child there’d always been a key left somewhere in the outhouse, the shed. After less than three minutes of searching, she found one, under a plant pot.  Opening the door, she rushed in, and her heart was in her mouth as she saw her father, flat on his back, eyes closed.

As Amelia rushed to him, she dialled for an ambulance.

 A few hours later, time she’d never want to repeat again, and Amelia was talking to the consultant. Her father was dehydrated, and malnourished, but after being on IV fluids for a few hours he expected good recovery.  And like clockwork, a further few hours later, her father was weak, but awake, talking.

                “Where’s Alex?” She asked her father as she plumped his pillows and settled him more comfortably.

                “Christmas...” he rasped, “took his fiancĂ©e to...Bahamas.”

                “But you’re in a terrible state. Didn’t he look after you?”

She didn’t get much out of him, but waited until she knew he was out of the woods before she drove back to London for the final day before the wedding!

Monday 23rd December 2008

After an early call to the hospital to be told her father was fine, Amelia met Li for the final day of preparation. That included her staying over tonight for more pampering and gossip. After all it was Li’s final day as the woman she was.

After breakfast Amelia had packed all her things, she was staying at Li’s home for a little while whilst they were on honeymoon. Daichi had promised to pick her up at ten; he was rushing around too, but he insisted that she couldn’t cross town with all her bags. As she sat in a deep armchair near the open fire that warmed the reception, her phone bleeped to tell her via text that he’d been held up at his restaurant and wouldn’t be there until eleven. Checking her watch she groaned, it wasn’t quite a quarter to ten; that meant over an hour to wait. She tried to call him, but it went straight to answer phone. She’d get a cab, but if she couldn’t get hold of him he’d traipse all that way across here for no reason.

With a sigh, she called over a waiter and ordered coffee. Thank God she had a book in her bag. Drifting off into the World of Stieg Larsson, Li had bought her the new best seller The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, and she was loving it. So much so that she almost forgot where she was.

The voice seemed to seep into the zone that the great writing had taken her to, and her heart was racing before she’d acknowledged it. Almost dropping the book, she glanced around and every cell in her body stopped functioning. Stood at the bar, the other side of the reception of the hotel, talking to a group of people, was Sol. He looked beautiful, he’d let his hair grow a little, which reminded her of the young Sol of her childhood, but the exquisitely cut suit, the Italian shoes...they all reminded her that her boy had grown up.

The familiarity, the homeliness of the vision combined with the lurch of desire and lust confused her. Until now she’d managed to control her thoughts and feeling s for this man, but the surprise of him being here, in her hotel had caught her out. Half of her wanted to run across the room, hug him, be hugged, feel safe, and feel at home. The other half wanted to shoot out the door, run and run until she was far enough away.

Ducking down into the wingback chair that hid her slightly from the group containing him, she did neither, she panicked. Pulling the book up to her nose, she hoped that no one saw her whilst she decided what to do.

The decision was taken out of her hands when the waiter arrived with a tray of coffee, smiling and handing him a note to cover the bill she was about to slide back into her hiding place when she felt eyes on her. Glancing towards the bar, she saw Sol, a look of surprise crossing his face. As her eyes met his, he smiled, and immediately sensed relief in his expression.

Excusing himself from the group he was with, he crossed the room to her. She smiled as he approached, glad that he’d made the decision for her. With each step towards her she felt the mixture of fear and excitement rise, the surge of adrenaline and the hint of nausea.

                “Hey Meals! What brings you here? I thought you’d be living with Li before the wedding.”  He lowered himself to perch on the table in front of her.

She nodded, “giving her some breathing space. They’re both a bit stressed. I thought I’d be out of the way here.”

Sol smiled, and it lit up her world, “I read about Clay...”

Nodding, she felt tears threaten and realised that they would give Sol the wrong idea, “you think you know someone...”

                “I thought you’d call...” 

So he'd felt rejected all over again. She was convinced that was the tight thing at the time,  but now...No she needed to find herself, she'd done the right thing.

                “I chose him; I could hardly call you as soon as things went wrong. What was I supposed to say? ‘Sorry Sol I made the wrong choice’?”

Sol chuckled, “the fact that you considered it is enough I suppose. And we’re both guilty of that aren’t we? Making the worng choices.” They both laughed ironically. “Are you ok otherwise? How’s New York?”

Amelia sighed, “it’s a long old story, but I think me and New York are about to part company, the finance companies have taken a real hit.”

His eyes widened, “you’re out of work?”

She shrugged, “sort of, though I have a few irons in the fire so to speak.”

                “You always were dynamic.”

His comment was followed by a pregnant pause, and though it wasn’t awkward for either of them, both their minds were working overtime trying to formulate the thoughts and emotions that were ransacking their minds. Sol glanced up and saw his group waiting for him.

                “Shit!” he took her hands in his and she gasped at the heat, the electricity the contact caused. He stuttered too and she knew he’d felt it. Shaking his head for a second he added, “I really need to go. I’ve got a meeting. I suppose you're not free later with the wedding?”

She shook her head, “I’m staying with Li.”

                “And you’ll be tied up all day tomorrow?” She nodded a reply. “What about Christmas Day? With Li gone...”

She sighed, “With Li gone I would be alone, but I have to go home, my father’s in hospital, Alex is away. I should be there now.”

He looked surprised, and concerned, “is he ok? Do you need me to go check on him?”

                “After all he’s done to you?”

Sol shrugged, “I’d do it to help you!” Pausing for a moment, he smiled, “I could pick you up after the wedding and drive you to the hospital. You can’t be alone Christmas Day; I’ll cook dinner at your father’s whilst you visit him...”

                “I can’t let you do that Sol; you must have your own plans.”

He laughed, “I haven’t really celebrated Christmas since I left your home. Why would I? But I want to help you Meals, I want to do this for you.”

                “I don’t...”

He placed a finger on her lips and the sensation of his contact increased so that she was speechless, “a lot of bad has happened, but ultimately we are two lonely friends, who could be alone and sad on a special day...or we could spend it together catching up. I’m not expecting anything more than your company. What do you say?”

He stood as his acquaintances started to shuffle into a conference room, all the time pleading with her for the opportunity to just spend time.

When she nodded an agreement, he smiled, a beaming happy smile.

                “Great, I’ll pick you up at ten? Organise any luggage you have for me, I can collect it from here? Anyway, I’ve got to go. You still got my number? Text me?”

When she flustered unsure, he handed her a business card. Then he was gone.