Chapter 19
For a moment Kate had taken in
the sight of him greedily, he was like a mirage, an oasis in a desert, and she
almost wanted to reach out and touch him, make sure he wasn’t an illusion. As
his lips rolled up into the curve of a smile, she finally processed the fact
that he was here, in front of her.
Then she reminded herself that
she’d drunk dialled him three nights previously and she’d had no contact, no
return call, nothing. He’d deliberately left her hanging on; she could now see
that so clearly. If he was here for Christmas, he’d known he would be when
she’d called, he could have phoned her, told her she’d be seeing him, but no.
Had he wanted the element of surprise, wanted to wrong-foot her?
She didn’t know. All she knew
was that she was livid!
“Hey Kate. It’s so good to see you again.” He offered
as some sort of olive branch.
“’Hey Kate?’ You bastard!” she snarled. “You planned
this, didn’t you? Let’s put Kate on the back foot again. I’m not some pawn in
your stupid game Mason! This is my life you are screwing with!”
He raised an eyebrow,
otherwise his face completely calm, “it’s not your LIFE I want to screw
Kate...but then you know that.”
It was purely instinct that saw
her hand fly up and aim for his face, but he was quick, and wise to her,
intercepting easily. “Calm down or I’ll have to start calling you Kat!”
She could feel her nose wrinkle
in anger, knew that she was baring her teeth, but she didn’t care. “Get out of
my way. You’re so despicable!” hearing his snigger only riled her more. With a
huff and a nose pushed in the air, she stormed past him, but was unable to
ignore the words he breathed.
“God you’re horny when you’re angry.”
Kate felt as though she were
about to explode. She felt such contempt for him, but she couldn’t deny the
effect of seeing him looking so good was having on her. Handing him a look that
could kill, she continued into the elaborate hallway. As she unbuttoned her
coat and made to hang it up with the others, a door opened from the lounge and
Peter emerged.
In typical Peter fashion, he
skipped across the hall, delight on every inch of his face, “Kate! I’ve been
waiting for you to come FOREVER!” He announced before throwing his arms around
her neck.
As she circled her arms around
him in a reciprocal manner, she glanced up to see Mason, the sureness and
confidence long gone. In fact Kate was almost relieved to see that spark of
jealousy in his eyes.
Breaking the embrace with
Peter, she allowed him to take her hand, and lead her into the lounge, babbling
excitedly as they went. Christmas with the Wightman’s followed a similar
pattern every year. Lots of alcohol in the morning, a very late lunch, then
gifts during and after the meal. Every year there were four other guests after
her, Peter and Clarissa, Margaret – who she now realised was Mason’s mother, Judith
and Malcolm the nearest neighbours and their daughter Sarah, but Peter told her
excitedly as she entered the heavily decorated room with the ornate tree and
dozens of gifts, that the neighbours were in the Caribbean on a holiday. So it
was just the four of them, plus his ‘wonderful’ cousin Mason, the pride in the
words screamed of a rather ironic case of hero-worship, and she felt awful all
over again.
Peter then excitedly pointed
out all his gifts amongst the dozens under the tree. When Kate, after giving
the appropriate amount of excitement turned around, Mason was lounging against
the door frame watching the little drama unfold. Heat flushed her cheeks,
partly through reaction to him; she’d never had anyone cause her to react like
this, but also because he was witnessing the sham that her life was.
Again holding her nose high in
the air she waltzed past him, but the doorway was narrow and she had to squeeze
past him. He laid a hand on her shoulder, the most fleeting of touches but it
almost stopped her dead in her tracks. The
zing of anticipation of that hand moving a little more. AS she took a steadying
deep breath and kept moving, Mason chuckled. No words, no goading just a husky
laugh.
Mason watched her go and
smiled to himself, at this moment he knew she hated him, but since his Aunt
Clarissa had confided that Kate was changing things, that she was asking for
help with Peter he’d known that his harsh words had hit home and she was
standing up for herself. It had been torture keeping away from her, especially
when she’d left that forlorn drunk message. It had more than pulled at his
heart strings. But she had to make that stand herself, he didn’t want to be
involved in it, there was a time and a place for them, all this had to be her
doing.
So why goad her so much? He
was wondering that himself, but he knew that it was the only way for her to
know he was interested without dragging her off to bed. But he’d also been
amazed at the response to finally seeing her. His body had been ‘alert’ to put
it mildly since she’d walked through the door. He’d intended for nothing to
happen whilst they were here, but as she brushed past him, lighting a fire
throughout his body, he wasn’t honestly sure how strong his resolve was.
Kate was in the kitchen for a
long time, reacquainting with the woman she hadn’t known was Mason’s mother,
and Peter’s mother. They were both loving the cooking as usual; there was
literally food on every surface. Peter had drifted off to his room as he had a
habit of doing, as much as he was mentally stimulated at the Residential
Centre, there was something he must find comforting in his childhood bedroom
and he often disappeared there when he was home. His mother had installed a
video baby monitor to keep an eye on him, and Kate glanced over to the screen
and noticed him sat cross legged on his bed surrounded by his tools. He loved
tinkering with anything electrical, and it was the only time he was happy
alone.
“Why don’t you get Mason to take you to the pub?”
Margaret his mother offered, seeing Kate look at the screen. “You two are too young
to be stuck here with us old fuddy-duddy’s! Peter’s happy, and we’re busy
preparing lunch.”
As Kate was making excuses,
Mason walked up behind her, “look at you two! How many sherry’s have you had
already?”
Clarissa giggled as she
reached for her small glass, “not that many Mason! You’re mother was just suggesting that you
take Kate to the pub. Peter’s busy, dinner will be a while, and Christmas
morning at the Ship is particularly fun!”
Mason smiled at Kate, “sounds
perfect, it’s cold though, so wrap up warm!”
Kate realised to protest too
strongly would be a mistake. So reluctantly she agreed and found her coat. Her
hat and gloves were in the car along with her gifts, so she retrieved them and
was re-entering the house when Mason appeared, dressed for the winter in a
beanie hat and a thick ski jacket.
“You ready”?
Kate scowled before lowering
the gifts to a side table, “as I’ll ever be!” With that she marched out ahead
of him. They’d not reached the end of the driveway when he caught up with her.
“What’s with the frosty reception Kate?”
She stopped and turned to him
hands on hips ready to explode, “I called you three days ago, you’ve not as
much as sent me a text message back. Then I turn up here and you’re here too.
You could have told me, warned me, let me be prepared!”
He laughed and the sound only
irked her more, “the last time I saw you, you took great pleasure in telling me
how much you hated me, never wanted to see me again. So forgive me if I didn’t
reply to an obviously drunk message. What was it? I’m drunk where’s my shag? Is
that what I am?”
“I didn’t say that...I just...”
He could see the conflict in
her eyes and decided to put her out of her misery, “look. You needed time to
sort your own head out, I hear from Aunt Clarissa that you seem to be doing
that. I didn’t want to complicate things. If I was around when you made those
choices you may resent me in the future. I don’t want that for us!”
“There is no us!” She announced storming off, and
Mason was happy to slowly stroll after her and let her calm down. Hitting the
main road she turned right for the village. Before they reached the pub he took
her arm and slowed her down.
“If you knew I was coming you’d have been torn over
what to do. You want to do right by Peter, but me being here is a complication.
I know that, and I didn’t want to compromise you. But I wanted to see you,
couldn’t resist it. And whilst I didn’t think you’d launch yourself into my
arms, I kind of hoped after the phone call that you might have been a bit
happier to see me!”
With that he opened the door
to the bar and stepped into the chaotic room.
Kate paused for a second glad
of the cacophony to distract from her reply to his comments, because everything
he said made sense, and she was more than happy to see him, and now that she
thought back to his earlier suggestive comments she blushed. This was going to
be a very interesting Christmas.
She finally found Mason at the
bar, but she couldn’t get close to him, it was five deep. So she slunk back to
a pillar near the door and propped herself there until she saw him cutting
through the crowd, two ice cold pints of lager in his hands.
“I presumed that a beer was the call of the day, and there
was too much of a queue to come and ask you.”
She accepted the drink with a
half smile, “that’s fine, thanks!”
He sipped his drink, resting
his shoulder next to her and smiling down at her, “so why did you call?”
With a groan she punched his
arm, then sighed, “You know why I called, so don’t tease me!”
“Maybe I just want to hear you say it!”
Kate was mortified, she’d
never been great with showing her feelings, the last man she’d shared herself
with was Peter, and Mason had been right, she’d hidden behind him for so long, and
now she wasn’t sure how she managed to break down those barriers. She had
palpitations at the thought of him knowing how she really felt.
“Maybe you have to spend longer being nicer to me and
I might forgive you!”
It was meant as a throw away
comment, but at the immediate raising of his eyebrow she felt her heart start
to race, fear and anticipation was causing nausea to rise in her throat. Then
he lifted a hand and stroked her cheek, securing a tendril of hair behind her
ear.
“I can be very, very nice Kate, you know that!” The
whispered words tied her insides up in knots.
Shrugging free of his hand she
stepped away from him, “don’t! I’m still not comfortable with all this. I’ll be
amicable, we can enjoy the day, but that’s it Mason. That’s it!”
The protests were a little OTT
for the situation, but Kate felt she was walking a tightrope. She was so far
away from her comfort zone that she was struggling to function. Everything she
said or did seemed to have other meanings, implications and connotations. All
she wanted was to deal with Christmas, get Peter to understand he’d be having
more time with carers, less time with her, and then get back to her life.
They drank in silence for a
few moments, watching the locals interact, people laughed and joked, and there
were some very obvious Christmas jumpers in the pub, and it was as one guy,
probably mid thirties walked in wearing a knitted sweater, red with white
snowflakes surrounding a reindeer, complete with antlers and a flashing red
nose! Kate started to snigger on seeing
it, and very soon the two of them could barely stand for laughing.
“I love it when you laugh,” He finally managed to
whisper, “You just don’t do it often enough!”
Turning to smile at him, she
added, “You’d be surprised!”
Nodding he lifted his drink to
his lips, “You keep surprising me. Why did you phone?”
All Mason wanted was to hear the
words ‘I was wrong’ or ‘I wanted to hear your voice’, but he could see the
determination in her face as she shook her head.
“I’m not answering any questions!”
Leaning close so that his lips
were merely a breath away from her ear, he murmured, “Until you answer that
question you can only imagine what reward it will bring...”
Kate gasped, her whole body
tingled, throbbed at the thought of what those words meant, but she stood firm,
merely giving a slight nod. They may both be desperate to rip each other’s
clothes off, but she was sure of two things, it wouldn’t happen when Peter was around,
and she wouldn’t make the first move.