Chapter Eight
Cosmo’s lips were warm and
firm, Heidi remembered them so well. She licked gently, wanting to taste him,
feel him, and this kiss was far too gentle, but that only lasted for a moment.
There was a second when they could’ve parted, could’ve stopped things, calmed
things down, but there was almost an unwritten agreement, as they both
struggled to fight their emotions.
His hands dropped from her
face, and he wrapped his arms around her, loving the sensation of her warm and
pliant against his chest. He took control of the kiss, sucking at her bottom lip
gently, sliding a tongue into her lips, seeking hers. Moaning, she let her lips
part further, pushed her own tongue to meet his. What had started as a goodbye
kiss soon became so much more. Heidi clung to him desperately; suddenly they
were ravenous, mouths frantic, teeth grazing, lips dragging, tongues duelling.
They couldn’t get enough of each other. His stubble grazed the delicate skin of
her chin, but she was unfeeling, all she knew were those hypnotising lips were
occupying her every thought, tugging at hers, making her forget anything and everything.
In a small moment of clarity,
Cosmo pulled back, “Heidi,” his words were unsteady as her mouth move to devour
his neck, she was unconcerned at the way his stubble now grazed her lips. She
was like someone starved for months, and in effect she was. She could hear him
repeating her name, and eventually her sanity returned and she lifted her head
to look at him.
He sighed as her mouth left
his skin, already missing the feeling. He didn’t want to end this, but he knew
that it wasn’t what she wanted. She wasn’t ready for this and he wasn’t sure
that he was.
“We have to think about this Heidi, a step further
and I don’t think I can stop...” He smiled, reaching out to touch her nose for
a moment, before pulling her back into his arms. “You know that’s what I want,
more than anything,” he wriggled his hips against hers and she jolted as she
felt him hard against her stomach. “But I don’t want to compromise you here.”
She tried to smile as she felt
tears well again, “I can’t even blame it on being drunk!”
“If
either of us was drunk we’d be in your bedroom and there’d be no going back.”
He landed a kiss on her forehead. “You are the sexiest kisser I’ve ever met
though!”
She didn’t believe him, but it
was still so flattering. “Yeah?” she leaned back in his arms to meet his
chocolate eyes again. “You’re not too bad yourself!” As he smiled down at her,
she added, “I really want you to stay, more than anything. But we can’t Cosmo,
can we?”
He shook his head, “you are
too special Heidi. It’s the wrong time, the wrong place. One day I will treat
you as you deserve. Look after you; lavish my time, my attention, my money. One
day I WILL take you to bed, and wake beside you the happiest man in the World!”
She gasped, so many men held
their cards close to their chests when it came to emotions, but Cosmo didn’t.
He was almost old fashioned in his ways, but yet still sexy, sensual, and as
honest as a man could be in this situation. As she watched the door close
behind him she burst into tears, desperately wishing at least one of them had looser
scruples and morals.
It was hard to imagine not
seeing Cosmo again, but she had the launch of the winter range of her fashion
line to organise, despite it only being early September. So after what had all
in all amounted to a dreadful weekend, she dragged herself into work on Monday
with the weight of the world on her shoulders.
Polly was head over heels
besotted after her weekend with Walt and whilst Heidi was SO pleased for her
friend, she couldn’t believe the irony of the timing. But she sat silently next
to a happy, bordering on ecstatic assistant, gushing in the throes of early
love. She managed to smile at the appropriate time and listen to all the first
stories...first kiss, first date, fortunately Polly didn’t go into THAT much
depth, and Heidi managed to respond appropriately through it all, whilst inside
she felt like she’d been torn in two.
The only one who knew the
truth was Sadie, who fresh back from Paris, met her after work for a drink.
“You look dreadful chickadee!” her friend announced
as she stood to greet Heidi.
“It’s a great thing that I don’t rely on you to boost
my ego!” She hugged eve. “You bring me back to Earth with a bump!”
Sadie chuckled, “hey, this is
me showing concern!”
Heidi slumped into the chair opposite her, and reached
for the bottle of wine that sat in an ice bucket next to her friend, glugging a
large amount into the spare glass. Then like a sadist she smiled, “so tell me
all about love and life in Gay Paris!”
It was Sadie’s favourite subject, and by now Heidi was a
specialist at hiding her own heartache as she listened to the improving love
life of yet another of her friends.
“So,” Sadie prompted, after she’d filled her in far
too many of the gory details. “So tell me what’s eating you? You’ve finished
your range, got it all sorted, you have a huge launch night just around the
corner, and you look like death. You sounded ok on Saturday.”
Heidi sighed a response, “guess?
Clue: six foot and Greek?”
Her eyes widened and she
leaned forward, “since Friday night? Did you call him?”
Shaking her head, she tried to
smile, “no. He came to me. Rang my doorbell.”
Sadie spotted the tears
welling in her friend’s eyes and lifting a hand called over a waiter, “two Sambuccas
please, flaming!”
The waiter nodded and
disappeared.
“Medicinal!” she convinced Heidi whose eyebrows had risen
in surprise. They both downed the drinks when they arrived, and as they emptied
the bottle of wine, Heidi started to explain about all that had happened since
they’d ended their call on the previous Saturday. She hated how desperate she
sounded and hated admitting how close she got to embroiling herself with a
married man.
“Don’t get so stressed, this is life and it’s
complicated. He’s told you it’s over...with his wife.”
Heidi shook her head, “but
she’s beautiful, glamorous...”
Sadie shook her head
vehemently, “all that glisters is not gold madam, just cos she’s pretty doesn’t
mean she’s a nice person, you...YOU are lovely, inside and out. He’s no fool if
he spotted that so quickly.”
“I can’t encourage this...”
Shrugging Sadie called for
another bottle of wine, “I think you’re mad. Live life on the edge girl! A bit
of fun makes the world go around.”
“What about
my mother? Do I just railroad all that too? Just to be selfish.”
Sadie shrugged, “where is she
when you’re feeling ill or sad? Or come to think of it, when that errant
brother of your Lucas wants something YOU are the one he comes to, you look out
for everyone else; YOU drop everything to go see her...Bloody hell she didn’t
even tell you about her engagement. Don’t feel selfish, you are selfless. If
you happen to have a bit of fun or more with him, then I think you’re more than
deserving of some self indulgence!”
Smiling Heidi shook her head,
“you know me! There’s more chance of me running topless down the High Street
really, isn’t there?”
Resigned, Sadie hurried her
into ordering food; there was no way that Heidi would ever think of herself
first. Not over something so potentially huge.
Over the next few days, Heidi
spent all her spare time creating her mother’s wedding dress. She knew her
mother wanted something plain, yet elegant. So she decided on a straight full
length dress with a short sleeve jacket over the top. Her mother and Cesare had
planned the wedding for January, so she knew that she’d need some form of coat,
saying that, Cyprus would still be warm. Every decision, every adjustment she
had to rethink a dozen times. After all she had just four months to prepare for
it.
Still it was a challenge that
she relished all the more as it was for her mother.
But by the following Friday
she was happy with what she’d achieved, a huge step forward, it just needed her
mother’s approval of the materials, and some measurements and she could really
get started.
At the end of the week she
called her mother excited at the progress she’d made.
“I’ve got the dress ready to try Ma; I’m SO pleased
with it! I can’t wait for you so see it.”
“Wow!” her mother genuinely sounded happy. “I’ve been
talking to Cesare. Nikos is at Oxford, Eleni is in London at the moment, so we
thought we’d come over maybe in two weeks, so we can all meet up for dinner. It
would be nice for you to meet Cesare’s children. And I can’t wait to see you...and the dress.”
Heidi swallowed a lump of
emotion that had formed in her throat at the fact she was last on the list of
reasons to come to London, but then she knew it brought back awful memories for
her mother. Then there was meeting Eleni, finally...where Eleni treads, her
husband will follow, but what could she say. “That sounds fantastic mother,
I’ll put it in my diary.”
Sadie was genuinely concerned
when she heard the plans. Heidi was getting more stressed with the launch which
was due the following Friday, now she had this traumatic meal planned for the day
after. It all seemed so difficult for her friend. But as usual, Heidi took it
all on her shoulders and carried on stoically. TOO stoically.
“Friday. Will you come to the launch though? Be my
date?”
Sadie looked up from her
position across the room; they were watching Bridesmaids...again. And this was the first time she’d spoken since
explaining all that was happening the following weekend.
She laughed, “if you want me
to, of course I will. Isn’t your mother coming? That’s the weekend that she
comes here.”
“She doesn’t arrive until Friday afternoon, and I
think she’s sorting out some things for Lucas.”
Sadie paused the film, “sorting
out what? The bloke is thirty-three! And the biggest bloody loser known to man.”
Heidi chuckled, “I’m not
rightly sure; she just said she had to go to his when she arrived.”
Her friend fumed, “Heidi they
do not deserve you! This is the perfect opportunity for your mother to support
you in your success! Instead she bales your brother out of some hole he’s
created!”
“You don’t know that!” Heidi tried to protest.
Shaking her head, Sadie half turned
back to the screen, “bloody
Hell H, stop being so bloody agreeable! I am angry on your behalf.”
“It’s just family mechanics darling! You know how
that is.”
She scoffed, “I’m in a family
and no one would dare take the piss out of me like that!”
She could hear the sigh of
resignation in Heidi’s voice as she said, “are you coming or not? I can leave
you a ticket at the door.”
Sadie snapped out of her anger,
it wasn’t helpful to Heidi, not at this moment, “ticket at the door? No way. I
am accompanying you up the red carpet Miss!”
The second sigh, when it
happened, was one of relief. Then she offered, “you know there’ll not be a red
carpet, right?”
Heidi was throwing dress after
dress across the room as she tried to decide what to wear to the launch. This
year it was being held in a prestigious London art gallery. The crowd would comprise
of fashion writers and editors for magazines, newspapers and TV shows, as well
as a few other players in the fashion world. It was a budget clothing line,
hardly as prestigious as London Fashion Week, not by a long way, but more
recently some WAGS had been spotted in her designs, and Kate Middleton had
actually worn a coat she’d designed a year ago...God she was nervous.
She was still dressed in only
a strapless bra and lace knickers when the door bell rang. Sliding into a satin
robe, she headed out to let Sadie in, but as she swung the door open, she saw a
huge bunch of flowers, struggling to be held by Mrs Saunders her elderly
neighbour.
“There was a man at the door from the flower people,
he asked me to deliver to you as he was parked illegally!”
Heidi smiled at the older
woman, “thank you Mrs Saunders!”
She lifted the bouquet of arum
lilies, glossy green leaves and vibrant gerbera out of the almost incapable
hands of her neighbour thanked her and was just closing the door when she spotted
her friend striding up the stairs. As usual she was stunning in a strapless lilac
straight dress, edged in black with a black rose winding up from her right hip
to right breast, it was divine.
Heidi gave a more than
approving nod, “you look stunning girlfriend!”
She gave an elegant nod then
looked her friend up and down deliberately, “unlike you. Time’s upon us.” She
closed the door following Heidi into the lounge. “So who are the flowers off?”
Heidi shrugged, “can you check
the note whilst I get dressed, I didn’t notice the time.”
As she finally found the dress
she wanted, a narrow strapped straight dress that came to mid thigh, black but
covered in tiny half inch diameter mirrors she sighed gratefully. It was both
heavy, and expensive. She’d spent days sewing each of the discs onto the dress,
not an easy challenge. But it meant she reflected light, sparkling in so many
different ways, it was flattering in that it seemed to create an illusion of
changing shape. For the at best overly curvy Heidi, this was as close as she
got to feeling confident in a room she knew would be dominated by leggy model-esque
bodies.
Slipping into her silver
stilettos, she touched up her lipstick as she returned to the lounge to see Sadie
still wrestling to get the note free of the packaging that surrounded the
flowers. When she did she handed it to Heidi who ripped it open distractedly.
“Shit!” she gasped. Sadie looked at her questioningly,
before Heidi handed her the card to read for herself. Unable to speak as her
heart pulsed in her ears, she worried she might pass out for a moment. But she
took slow steady breaths as Sadie took the card, then read it aloud.
“ ‘Good luck
for your launch, you more than deserve it, Cosmo!’ Wow! What a man!”
Heidi shook her head, “I can’t
think about it, about him. Not tonight.” Not
ever.
But the irony wasn’t wasted on
her that the only ‘family’ member to even acknowledge the magnitude of the evening
ahead, or to know how important it was to her, was the only man she couldn’t allow
herself to think of again.
“You look beautiful!” Sadie announced breaking up the
sombre moment, “now come on, the taxi is here! Let’s show them all how amazing
YOU are.”
Such a cute moment when Cosmo sent the flowers.
ReplyDeleteI wonder how long till the drama kicks in, expecting a lot of tears. Just hope everything happens for the good. Thank you for the chapter! :D
Samaira T