Chapter Ninety Two
Martha watched the world disappear to miniature
portions as the plane flew higher and higher. She closed her eyes, she had no
objection to flying, but the anxiety befuddling her brain and the bile bubbling
in her throat were unsettling her stomach. And the last thirty six hours had
been nothing short of crazy.
From the minute James had mentioned Sonny Martha
had been like a dog with a bone.
“What
do you mean? What about Sonny?” James seemed to think he’d come home...to her.
But he hadn’t. So she immediately had feared the worst. Injury, illness,
accident, they all ran through her brain as she ignored Tim, the man who’d
spent forty minutes chatting her up, and she pinned James against the wall.
“Tell me what happened.”
He dropped his eyes, “Jade...she came to me a
couple of weeks ago, desperate crying...” he sighed. “She lied to him, told him
she was pregnant to make him leave you. She managed to keep the secret for a
while, but he found out and left. Just walked out abandoning her. She’s
desolate, she has nothing left.”
A huge wait lifted off her shoulders in that
split second as she watched James’ lips move as he spoke, but the words seemed
to take a long time to register with her.
“You
want me to feel sorry for your lying cheating sister?” She was on the verge of punching
something, someone. “She deliberately lied to force Sonny into choosing her,
and that left ME alone, where’s your sympathy for me?” James looked embarrassed
and Tim, until a few minutes earlier very keen on her, had moved away from her,
but then she was aware that she looked crazy. But her anger was immeasurable,
both at what Jade had done, and the fact that James was trying to justify her
actions.
But there was no baby, there was no Jade
anymore, but there WAS Sonny. He’d be so betrayed, so angry and hurt, she knew
that Sonny too well. And he hadn’t come to her. The thought immediately quashed any sense of
destiny.
Looking up at James she demanded, “when was
this?”
He shrugged; surprised that she didn’t know any
of this, “it happened a week last Sunday...”
Almost two weeks. Two weeks and he hadn’t
contacted her, fourteen days of freedom and he hadn’t come to her? She shook
her head in despair. “Tell me EVERYTHING you know...NOW!”
And he had, but it wasn’t much.
As Martha had sought out Jack, insisted they
go home, one question ran repeatedly through her brain, ‘why didn’t he call me?’ Mike was sat in the lounge watching a film
on the satellite movie channel and looked up when they burst in.
“Good
night? You’re earlier than I thought. You didn’t have to rush home.” The words
froze on his lips as he spotted Martha’s face.
He looked at Jack who rolled
his eyes dropping in to the seat next to him, both watching as Martha paced
manically, then turned to the other man, “she’s just found out that HE isn’t going
to be a Daddy, and he’s dumped Fake tits and tan.”
Mike grinned, “that’s good
right?”
Martha stopped dead, “it
SHOULD be, but where is he??? He hasn’t called, he hasn’t come back. What the
fucking hell has happened?”
Jack rolled his eyes again, “I’ve
had little else out of her since she saw the bitch’s brother.”
Mike was clearly struggling to
keep up, “I don’t understand.”
At that Martha once again
stopped in front of him, “he found a week Sunday...today is Saturday.” She
groaned glancing at her watch, “no, TODAY is now Sunday.” She counted out the
days on her fingers, “FOURTEEN DAYS! Where is he? What has gone on?” She flaked
dramatically into the armchair opposite them and felt like crying.
No one had any answer, and
hours after the two men went to bed, Martha could barely sleep. The following morning,
she’d dragged Ethan off before breakfast and was driving him to the flat before
ten. Once he was settled with a dozy Aunt Lucy, she drove to Michael’s. James
had mentioned Michael in his over verbal explanation of the events, so he was
her only lead. She regretted letting James leave the club, she should have
pinned him down for more information, but she hadn’t.
Parking Herman in the large
sprawling driveway, she jumped out of the car and bounded up the steps. She
didn’t wait for Derek to open the door, instead she burst in, moving from room
to room, shouting out his name as she went. Emerging from the dining room back
to the hall, she was finally rewarded with Michael coming down the stairs
towards her, his pale face etched with fear.
“You’ve heard from him.” He sounded almost resigned; his
voice frail where normally it was strong and clear. But she didn’t have time or
energy to deal with his anxiety too.
Martha stalked towards him
shaking her head, “NO, I haven’t, and I’ve heard fuck all from you!”
He flushed at that, “look
Martha...”
Martha wasn’t ready to hear anything,
“No ‘look Martha’, you KNEW that Jade wasn’t having his baby, yet you said
nothing? I thought we were friends. You KNOW how things were; you KNOW what
happened, how he felt.”
Michael shook his head,
“nothing was ever that straight forward.”
Standing up to him, leaning
into his personal space she snarled, “did you or did you not find out that Jade
wasn’t pregnant?”
He groaned again, “things are
never that simple.”
She shook her head, “they are
to me. I love him Michael, and I NEED him. My life is nothing without him, and
the fact that he hasn’t come back here means he needs ME. IS that what you hate
that it’s me he wants?”
Michael shook his head, “we’re
only starting out Martha, we’ve hardly got a strong relationship.”
“Where is he?”
Michael shrugged noncommittally,
“I don’t know. He walked out...he hates me...”He sounded broken but Martha
didn’t have time for that.
Martha started to shake her
head, “I’m not interested in you, all I care about is him, I need to find him.”
“I can’t help you Martha, I only wish I knew.”
She stared at the man for an
age and he met her eyes with confidence, “ok, I believe that part...but I’m not
finished with you.”
Storming out she made for
Herman ransacking the recesses of her brain as she went. Where could Sonny go?
Where would he hide? And WHY would he hide? Why wouldn’t he come find her?
Sonny wasn’t feeling any
clearer about life. It was two weeks since he’d descended on Johnny. Since the
job they’d done that had seen Scott get killed he’d stayed out in Spain. In the
last six months he’d become settled. His sister Michelle was managing the
nightclub they both worked in and they had a beach front apartment that had a
fairly comfortable sofa. He’d spent four days staring at the wall, stopping
only to drink. He wanted revenge, but he had no one he could blame or hate but
himself. He’d woken up to himself somewhere in the last ten days, but now he
wandered listlessly with no idea how he was going to carry on. He had lost
everything and he couldn’t work out how to start over. He’d started anew so
many times that this seemed like the final straw.
And he’d never been as settled
as he had been in Denbrooke. The village that had finally captured him. Or
rather the woman that had. He sighed then reached for his beer, he’d hurt her
in SO many ways, he couldn’t go back, couldn’t risk hurting her again. Poor
Ethan, him too. He’d dipped in and out
of his life so erratically, they both deserved stability, strength, he offered
none of that. Those final moments with her were so fresh, she was so broken, so
devastated, and STILL he chose his own morals over her. What kind of a man was
he?
“I won’t see
you ever again.”
He remembered how much pain
those words had caused, but Martha was right to say them, he didn’t deserve
her, he never had, he could hardly run back to her, tail between his legs
looking for her as second choice. He’d made his choice and that hadn’t included
her. He had to accept that and move on. The fact that he didn’t want to see his
‘father’ again wasn’t a real influence to not going back, but it was another
level of betrayal that made him so angry.
“Look
at you, Happy Bastard!” A set of keys, wallet and sunglasses landed on the
table in front of him as Johnny laughing, lowered himself into the seat
opposite him. “So are you going to spend every day sat in this bar drinking
until you run out of cash?”
Sonny shrugged, “You got a better idea?”
Johnny shook his head in despair, “when I met
you Carter you were the strongest person I knew, I’d never have got through the
time inside if I hadn’t met you, I can’t see you give up, like this.”
Sonny laughed, “strong? You mean I can handle
myself? That’s a big difference.”
“Look
you have to sort yourself out, this is sad.”
Looking around him Sonny wanted to point out
that sitting looking out at the Med from a bar with obliging waitresses, if he
was that way inclined - but wasn’t, was one of his more productive locations.
At least he wasn’t stuck in a flat with that lying bitch or in prison. The two
images were merging into one in his head as each day passed.
“Is
Michelle moaning? I know I said I’d only be here a few days...”
Johnny shook his head, “she likes you, but
then most women do!”
Sonny laughed, “A month ago I’d have laughed
at my prowess with the ladies, but not now.”
It had been on the morning after the fourth
drunken night that Johnny forced him to face the truth. He hated sharing his
emotions, but somewhere he knew he was on a mission to self destruct, and he’d
told Johnny all about Jade’s antics. What he hadn’t shared was his love for
Martha, the wrench that is had been leaving her, how his heart had broken and
he wasn’t sure he’d ever recover. Johnny was a friend through the shit they’d
both been dealt, but he wasn’t ever going to expose himself in that way. Better
that Johnny think he was gutted over Jade’s betrayal.
Sonny gestured to the waitress for a couple
of beers, despite what Johnny thought, he hadn’t been drinking all day, in fact
he’d had breakfast and a couple of orange juices, then gone for a walk. He’d
only been back at this familiar seat at the bar for an hour, and for most of
that he’d been reading the paper, then checking the betting odds on his phone.
The beauty of free wifi meant he had just won three hundred pounds on a race at
Aintree. Bonus.
Johnny threw a beer mat on to the table
between them, it had a telephone number written on it, as Sonny grabbed it, the
waitress placed two bottle of beer in front of them. Nodding and paying her,
Sonny waved it at Johnny, “what’s this?”
“A
guy who’s just bought a few bars about ten miles away, he’s looking for staff
in various capacities, contacted Michelle...she obviously wasn’t about to give
him any of her staff, but she thought of you. Gives you an option.”
Sonny looked at it for a moment then smiled,
and it felt like the first time he’d smiled in weeks. “Thanks. It’s good to
have options...I can either go back to London or stay here.”
Johnny sighed, “you’re ruling out going back
to Denbrooke, or even Northfield?”
He nodded, Johnny didn’t know about Michael
either, “no ties there Johnny, it’s old ground or start anew.”
“What
you going to do?”
Sonny really didn’t know.
“I
think I’m going to go get changed then hit the town...there’s a man works at a
club I know and he said I can get in for free.”
Johnny laughed, “you con your way around the
world, don’t you!” He sipped his drink, “I’ll finish this beer then head back
with you.”
They were sat on a bar above the beach, the
sand separated from them by a wooden promenade, all day people paraded up and
down in front of the various bars and shops that lined the walkway, strolling
and enjoying the sun, or showing off in equal measure. So when Johnny gave a
low and long wolf whistle, Sonny rolled his eyes behind his shades. Turning his
head he followed Johnny’s eyes to see a woman, or rather a vision. She had dark
hair tied in a loose plait dangling over one shoulder and she was wearing a
pair of short ripped denim shorts, a white crocheted bikini top that barely
concealed her ample breasts, and chunky ankle boots. She looked quirky,
exciting and fun. Her eyes were hidden by shades, mirror silver aviators, but
as with every visually stunning woman, he looked at her and instantly saw
Martha. Her and this woman shared that casual manner, an unawareness of how
many people, women and men turned their head in her wake.
She was slimmer than Martha, and tanned, but
otherwise she was similar. She even had a scar on his right knee...
Sonny did a double take, then felt as though
his whole world was a chess board that someone had tossed up into the air
uncaring of where the pieces landed. Her relaxed manner ended when she looked
in his direction, and he couldn’t miss the look of pleasure, relief that
crossed her face for a brief moment before her eyebrows furrowed into a frown,
and storming up to him, she reached for his bottle of beer then threw the cold
amber liquid in his face before walking off in a strop.
As Johnny gasped in shock, Sonny wiped the
beer from his face and hid his smile. He’d never felt more alive.
Yaay Martha found him :D I kinda understand why Sonny didn't go to Martha. For him I guess that was the right decision but I am so happy that Martha decided to look for him. :D Thanks for the chapter! x
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She's not close to understanding him yet, not sure he understands himself.
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